Sometime during the work morning, I noticed I was a little blue. No particular reason, my cold/sinus stuff is almost gone but just felt a cloud over my head like a cartoon character might have. Do you understand? Something bothering you but just don't know what.
Then I looked at the calendar and there it was the date...2/20... my first husband's birthdate. There it was the reason for that cloud. Not him but the fact that my mother's death date is 3 days after his birthday on 2/23. It happens every year since Mama's gone. The first few years I would call all my siblings, then later I would send my oldest sister and email, then I would just think about her, my first husband and the events surrounding her passing as if it were yesterday. Truth is, if Mama were still here she would 98 year old but still even at 58, I need my Mama sometimes and I miss her like crazy.
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{{{Hugs}}}, JC!
I'm sorry you're feeling blue, but I understand.
What strikes me about your post is how fortunate your mother was to have been so loved by you that her *physical* absence still affects you so profoundly.
So true...
sometimes I think...I should tell Mom that. Then I smile...just feel conected and that feels good. She has been gone 10 years.
I don't think the missing ever goes away.
I've been blessed. My Mum lived to 96.8 years and only recently died. I'm still getting used to the idea that she's not there to chat with.
My grief is not what I expected because we have been waiting for it but the missing is strong.
Blessings as you remember
PS You might want to look at turning off word verification. It has become ten times worse than it was. *smile*
I'm a little late....ok, I"m a LOT late....but hugs to you!!!!!
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